Out of the closet. And Right back in...

So for those of you interested in my "coming out" story... well its an interesting situation.

I'll start off by saying that my parents are quite religious. I mean... they don't throw the bible at every passing person but... they are strong believers. So obviously, I didn't want to tell them because they would just say that I was headed to hell and cry and so on. 

My parents and I are also very close to each other. My homosexuality is the really the only thing I held from them. So they know that I've had sex with girls which of course leads them to believe I'm straight. 

I'm sorry... did i say coming out story? I meant forcing out. 

Hah well I made a horrible decision. I had sex with my friend, Blu at my parents house. Blu and I had been talking for a while and I was into him and it was just sorta spur of the moment. Well things got heavy (maybe ill share that story next time). My mom RANDOMLY wakes up at 2 in the morning and is walking about the house and overheard the sex noises. 

Here's the kicker.

She calls my phone and when I saw her number pop up on my phone... I knew what was going to happen. I went to her room and she is just looking at me. Looking at me with the most disappointing eyes. It was tough. A few beats later she says "Do you think you're gay?" Well I paused and started to lie but I was like... fuck it, I'm obviously caught. 

"Yes I'm gay."

My dad's attention was immediately captured. It was odd hearing those words coming out of my mouth. I wondered what it sounded like to them. 

It was an intense moment. My mom left the room and told Blu to leave. My parents and I spent the next 3 hours talking about... when did i find out i was gay, how long have i been having sex with guys, have i tried not being gay, and how its a sin. Mom even went on to say I'm dying a spiritual death. Dad couldn't even talk.

Well some time passed... my mom asked me "how do you feel?"

"About what?"

"The whole gay thing"

"Oh its fine, I haven't really thought about it"

She went on to say that she felt God was delivering me from my homosexuality. I pretty much assured her it was all good. At this point, life is back to normal. My parents don't think I'm gay and I have to lie about what I'm doing when I go on dates.

Hah I didnt know I'd be able to go hiding in the closet again but I pulled it off.

Guess I turned the impossible possible. 

(*Pk*)